Summer School Day 3

IT'S ONLY DAY 3!
:p

After the hellacious issues with move in day Sunday, I pretty much expected this to be the worst four weeks of my life.

And after a hysterically crying phone call to my dad on Monday night, I'm doing okay. Living alone in my house kinda sucks, and I'm still a little paranoid. But I was able to sleep without my cookie monster lamp on for most of the night last night! :) (though I still had the living room lamp on, but I'm working on it lol)

The work n learn kind of sucks, but there's a bunch of people in my group who are pretty cool, so that helps :) Today we scrubbed the grout in the music building lobby....it was black this morning..now it's beige lol. That only took like 4 hours. It was rough, but fun!

My class is alright. It's world history. Whatever:p


I don't like to be alone. I like my alone time, but this is a little more than what I had in mind. I've never lived on my own before. The most I've dealt with was when my parents and little sister went to Arkansas last summer for a week and I had to stay home because I was scheduled to work one effing day. But even then, I slept on the couch upstairs the whole week...So Idk. I'm getting used to being here and being independent. But it's hard, and I'm still scared. I miss all my school friends. I'm making friends here but I'm not a big fan of the unknown. I think I'll be alright, it's just taking time. It's interesting to say the least:p

Only 3 1/2 weeks left!

Love me or leave me.

i just had the best birthday in the entire world. i love my friends so much. the ones here and those from home. i miss my girls from home, but i know at the same time i've got the best of friends here as well. i love them all.

on a less happy note, i hate this feeling of not knowing what's going to happen. it scares me. i dont like being scared. especially about this. stop playing with my heart. i know what i want. and either let me have it or leave me alone. this changing your mind shit is going to either kill me or drive me crazy. neither of which i particularly want to deal with.

oh hey, i'm 19. that's not that exciting but i feel older just saying it. i can't do anything special at 19, but i feel like a real college student now:p all my friends from high school who are graduating this year and just turned 18 made me feel really young...but now i feel old:p

i love college. i love lindenwood. it's annoying but anywhere would be annoying. i love my friends here. kim is my best friend here and i dont know what i'd do without her. probably go crazy..(and we cant have that:p).

now i'm just rambling. there's so much on my mind and i dont know what to do. boo.

<3, Ash