Today is the first day of April

Holy hell this year is already going by so fast...It's almost scary. Where the hell is the time going!? It's crazy.


I realized today that I am hopeless. I know what I want and I'm too afraid to really go for it. (not you, it's a future thing). I love Chemistry. People cringe when I say that, but for some reason, it's the only thing I've ever really really understood. And that scares the shit out of me lol. I don't have a fall back. There's nothing else like chem, so if I can't do it, I'm kinda screwed. I know I want to be a chemist and work in a lab, and eventually own my own lab or run my own company with a lab..or whatever lol (thus the Business minor). But I'm so afraid of my future workload. I was never the smart daughter. I've always been the one who needs extra help. On the flip side, I've always been the most dedicated. I've always done my homework and gone to class. And I will continue to work my ass off until I get what I want. (aka, a degree in chemistry...i hope:p)

Aaaaaaaaaand I have nothing else to say. I'm bored with being home. I'm bored with the internet. I really really hope tomorrow goes the way I want it to. And back to school in 4 days...nooooooooo! Tata for now!