Love me or leave me.

i just had the best birthday in the entire world. i love my friends so much. the ones here and those from home. i miss my girls from home, but i know at the same time i've got the best of friends here as well. i love them all.

on a less happy note, i hate this feeling of not knowing what's going to happen. it scares me. i dont like being scared. especially about this. stop playing with my heart. i know what i want. and either let me have it or leave me alone. this changing your mind shit is going to either kill me or drive me crazy. neither of which i particularly want to deal with.

oh hey, i'm 19. that's not that exciting but i feel older just saying it. i can't do anything special at 19, but i feel like a real college student now:p all my friends from high school who are graduating this year and just turned 18 made me feel really young...but now i feel old:p

i love college. i love lindenwood. it's annoying but anywhere would be annoying. i love my friends here. kim is my best friend here and i dont know what i'd do without her. probably go crazy..(and we cant have that:p).

now i'm just rambling. there's so much on my mind and i dont know what to do. boo.

<3, Ash