I waste a lot of time.

There's so many things I want to do with my life, but I always find reasons for not doing them.
1)Money is a big issue. I have some, not a lot, but some, but I'm so stingy. And I HATE asking for money.
2)I can't get the motivation to just do it.
3)I don't think I can actually do something. I'm too young, it'll eventually happen, blah blah blah
4)Lack of confidence

These are reasons I suck at life.


However! Reasons I don't suck at life:
1)I know what I really want to do with my life.
2)There's this guy..
3)I have amazing friends


I feel like one of these days I'm just going to go off the deep end and just do something crazy. And I'm totally looking forward to it.

I'm fully aware that I'm kind of boring. I'm safe. I don't like to travel outside of my comfort zone. Going to Harvard last weekend was a big step for me. It was completely out of the blue and it was amazing. I had such a blast and I am so happy that I went! :)

But I fully intend on changing that boring-ness about me. You like me the way I am? I'll still be the same, just not so safe anymore. I'm gonna buckle down and do whatever the fuck I want. Jesus, I'm 19 and have like, virtually nothing to show with what I've done. So I'm going to do something. I just don't know what yet.

I'll keep you posted.