Recap 2009

January:

A rough start to the year. The end of Christmas break was quite interesting. I hung out with Alex a lot. As well as my girls. But things were back to normal with him. Things were no longer awkward. Then J-term started. And things started to go back to normal at school, which is what I wanted, but I knew wasn't for the best. Relationships continued to grow.

February:

Second semester. I was in the pit for Wizard of Oz. It took up a lot of time and I was quickly behind in my classes and in APO. I was definitely out of the loop on a lot of things. While I had fun, I won't do it again. It took up too much time and it was rather stressful. Relationships started again and I was really really happy.

March:

I don't remember much about March. Other than getting broken up with (for the second time).

April:

Also don't remember much about April. Other than getting back together. Again.

May:

MY BIRTHDAY! My party was epic on many levels. There were so many hookups that night, and none of them involved me. Now that's depressing. The semester ended and everyone left. Kim and I cried in her room before she left. I cried when he left. A couple days later, I moved into the campus house that I would be staying in for summer school.

Oh summer school. Cleaning dorms for 6 hours a day is not all that great. Freshman boys dorms are the grossest things ever. With that and having World History every day for 2 hours, I was beat. I lived alone in a 2 bedroom duplex with no cable or internet for 4 weeks. It was the first time I'd ever lived alone and it was scary as fuck.

But then Kim came to visit! And we roadtripped to KC for APO's Membership Academy. It will be a weekend that will NEVER be forgotten. Meeting boys from northern Minnesota and me getting alcohol poisoning the next day. (And throwing up 8 times, including once on the highway -- I-70 will never be the same).

June:

Summer school ended! My parents started construction on the new kitchen! I went to visit Kim!! 13 hours on a train was well worth it. I FINALLY got to meet Roni and she did my hair :P We had a blast. Definitely the highlight of my summer :)

We were back together. And he left on his trip. And I cried. Because that's what I do.

July:

He met someone else. And broke up with me in a text message.

I didn't hang out with anyone.

I watched a lot of Smallville on DVD on my laptop in my bedroom.

August:

Finally started hanging out with people at home again. Wasn't really ready to go back to school to face anyone. Especially him. Got into a pretty good routine. Rush went well and things were going alright. Though, I hated my classes.

September:

The only thing I remember about September is that Kim and I went to a lot of parties... Including EPIC WEEKEND. Three days in a row of getting drunk and making bad decisions. The best quote ever by me came from this weekend: "This is not a walk of shame. This is a walk of victory."

October:

Received another text message (from a different guy) telling me that he was dating someone else now. That feels awesome.

I finally started buckling down on my organic chemistry. That class is a bitch.

I also started my job in October.

November:

November was calm. I activated 10 new brothers into APO. I didn't really hang out with anyone. I started to really enjoy my job.

December:

I worked my ass off to get the grades I got: A in Speech, B in Astronomy, C in Chemistry, A in Band.

I finally decided to let it all go. I can't do anything to change the decisions of others. And instead of getting pissed about it, I just don't care. It doesn't affect me anymore. And instead of pretending like it does, I've just let it go. 2009 was a hard year. And I kind of made it that way, because I couldn't let go.



So it's time to grow up. I'm turning 20 this year. This is the first time in 4 years that I'm not dating someone or even have a crush on anyone. And that's really for the best. I need to focus on school. I have more important things to worry about than some asshole who is going to treat me like crap.

So hello 2010. It's very nice to see you.